I wrote in a post earlier this week that I decided to do the National Novel Writing Month Challenge this year. Yesterday I reached 12 000 words out of the 50 000 required to complete the challenge, and I have to admit that I am very proud of myself.
When I put in my word count on the NaNoWriMo website, I received an email congratulating me for surpassing 10 000 words. I also received a challenge to write a farewell letter from one of my characters to the other. The idea behind it was for me to get to know my character a little better, but I decided to share it with you too as an added challenge from myself.
This is the first time I’ve shared my writing with anyone. (Unless you count the stories we had to write in school) I am a little nervous, so please be kind, but I would love some feedback as well.
Here it goes.
First of all, I want to thank you for everything you’ve done for me. I don’t know where I’d be if it wasn’t for you. (Or well, we both know exactly where I’d be, but that’s not the point.) I know that the relationship we have now can never compare to what we used to have, but I love you very much and you will always hold a very special place in my heart.
It’s because of that, that this is really damn hard, but if I’m honest, I can’t really see any other way to move on.
Secondly, I want to apologize, but I don’t know where to begin.
Maybe first, I should say I’m sorry for what you lost when I lost my memories. Everyone always focused on what me, but I’m more concerned about you. I don’t know what I lost, but you do.
I want to apologize for all the trouble you have gone through for me. You told me you would gladly do it again, but I am still sorry. No one should have to go through what you have been through for my sake.
Lastly I want to apologize for leaving. Despite everything I’ve just written and despite all you’ve done to give me a new chance, I can’t properly start over with you around, as harsh as that may sound. I need a fresh sheet without any stains from my past to try to define who I am.
Give my love to your mum for me, please. I am eternally grateful for the kindness, and generosity she’s shown me. She’s been so patient and understanding, and I can’t thank her enough. She’s the coolest woman I’ve had the pleasure to meet so far in my life, and it makes me sad that I might never see her again.
That being said, I’m really excited to start my new life in New Zealand, because that’s where I’m going. You once told me that I used to be quite the drama queen, and maybe some of that still lingers, seeing as I feel like I have to move to the other side of the world to start over. But I think the other side of the world is exactly what I need right now.
If you ever get the chance to travel again, I want to invite you to Wellington. (I’ll include my address, just in case. And I’ll also send you my number as soon as I get one, but I must ask you not to use it unless you really have to. I need to establish myself in my new life before I can invite anything from my old one into it, if that makes sense.)
I know that you will understand why I have to do this, but for some reason that just makes it even harder. Which is why I’m writing this to explain justify myself. I hope that despite my poor letter-writing skills, I managed it to some degree, at least.
I hope I see you again sometime in the future.
Lots of Love,